I mean, the first time I saw her, my god, like, time slowed down. It was like a scene from some lame-o movie. You know, her hair blew in the wind, and she just looked perfect, so goddawn perfect. And it was right then and there that I knew she was the one. With Tammy, I would finally be able to be myself, you know, all of myself. Because there was always this part of me that kind of scared me, you know, but I thought that if Tammy loved me, all of me, you know, I wouldn't be scared any more And then he showed up, Steve the hair Harrington. God, you probably can guest the rest, Tammy fell for him hard. And my entire fantasy life with her, along with the rest of my life, pretty much imploded before my eyes. I mean my grades plummeted, I got grounded, I had to stay home everyweekend doing chores But then one day, I was cleaning bat shit out of my parents garage, and I found this 8-millimeter film reel, you know, it was just from this silly movie that i made in fouth grade. But i got it up on the projector, and all of a sudden, I was looking at this little version of myself. And this little one, i could hardly reconize her, you know, she was so carefree, and like fearless. she was just love every part of herself. and that's when it hit me, it was never about tone-deaf tammy. It was always just about me. I was looking for answers in somebody else, but i had all the answer. I just needed to stop being so goddamn scared, scared of who i really was. Once i did that, I felt so free. It's like i could fly, you know? like I could finally be rockin robin